Diary of a Network Geek

Not sure who else will care about this.

I doubt most of my readers will care too much about this, but I do sort of follow what goes on at Six Apart. They were the first real blog company, I think. They made the first blogging software I used, MovableType, and, really, they were around before just about anyone else. As a company, they've contributed quite a bit to the blogging world, beyond their software. In short, I keep an eye on them because they're one of the big players in the blog world.

In any case, according to this story on ZDnet, they've sold LiveJournal to a Russian online media company called SUP. They, apparently, are making a few changes, but the overall attitude seems to be a positive one. Personally, I wonder what made Six Apart sell LiveJournal. I don't use it myself, but I read a couple of blogs that are on LiveJournal so I'm passingly familiar with them. I doubt that LJ made any big money for Six Apart, but, then, I didn't think that was why they acquired them in the first place. At the time, I thought it was to convert people from LJ to Six Apart's MovableType-based service, TypePad. Now, though, I wonder if that was it at all. If they were after some technology that LJ had, what would it have been? And, now that they have it, why dump LJ?

Not sure what's going on there, but, no matter how you feel about Six Apart, they're pretty savy when it comes to business and blogging, so they likely have a pretty good reason for their decision to sell LiveJournal.  And, just as likely that none of us regular joes will ever know what it is.

Okay, you're going to see a lot of pictures.

Look, I apologize in advance, especially to the more experienced photographers who read my blog, but you all are going to see a lot of pictures here. Probably a lot of bad pictures as I figure out how to use this new camera, too. Hopefully, they'll start getting better, but, well, I make no promises, eh?

In any case, now you all can see my new Canon Digital Rebel XTi.
Notice, I have two lenses. One small, but with image stabilization. One zoom, but without image stabilization. The CF card is in the camera, but I threw the box in the pic anyway. Oh, and notice the handy cable for getting pictures off the camera. And the software that came with the camera to install both drivers and a handy utility program that includes the ability to take pictures remotely via the USB interface. But, I can use the other cable to display pictures on a television, if I wanted. Oh, and the handy reference manual.

I have to admit, I'm beside myself with this. When my ex-wife got her digital camera all those years ago, I so wanted to play with it, but I wasn't allowed. I mean, she paid for it and it was, ostensibly, hers and meant to improve her web mastering skills somehow. But, oh, how I wanted to use it. Especially when she let it just sit there after spending well over $1,000 for it. And, yes, I hoped that she'd "forget" and leave it behind, but she didn't. And I am so glad because this camera is so good and if she'd left her old one, I never would have gotten this one.

Until I started taking pictures yesterday, I didn't realize how badly I wanted a camera and to take pictures. I can even think of several little excursions into various parts of Houston that I haven't explored that I'd like to take, just for the photo opportunities.
Now, of course, I'll probably need to start saving for a better camera bag and a tripod...

I "failed" at NaNoWriMo, again.

I think November is quite possibly the absolute worst month for me to dedicate myself to a writing project. I end up with more social and work obligations in November than any other month of the year. At least, that's how it's seemed to me for the past several years. Hell, three years ago, when I planned to do NaNoWriMo for the first time, I was lucky to drag myself through the month at all! Last year, I was coughing blood and converting a phone system. This year I just had so many social obligations that I just got behind and never caught up.

And, I have to admit, I also didn't plan things nearly enough. Last year, at least I had worked out a bit of research and I'd been writing a bit. This year, not only did I not do enough research, but I don't think I'd written a word of fiction all year! Seriously, it's kind of been a long year with a lot of physical demands on me, so I just haven't been writing creatively, outside this blog, at all. I think it was pretty unrealistic of me to just jump in cold like that and expect to be writing over 1,500 words each day. In any case, I think what it proves to me is that I need to keep writing all the time. Waiting to get inspired is just foolish, as has been proven over and over by professional writers. Rather, if I keep writing, the inspiration will come of its own accord. So, that is my goal for the coming year: to write, every week.

To console myself, however, I bought my camera yesterday.
Ritz/Wolf Camera had a sale, which ended yesterday, that got me a Canon EOS Digital Rebel XTi with an 18-55mm lens and a 75-300mm zoom lens for just under $800 before tax. I added a 2gig memory card and the two-year protection and maintenance plan as well. The maintenance plan seemed a little expensive, at first, until one considers that it will repair or replace the camera and either lens, no matter the damage, for two years. And, it included an annual cleaning, each of which were almost half the price of the plan. Well worth it, I think, considering the investment I made. Oh, and the package deal specified a regular 55mm lens, but they were out of that, so I got a free upgrade to an 18-55mm lens with image stabilization built in. Super cool!
To be honest, I felt a little guilty about buying the camera.
I mean, sure, I did "earn" the money via ad revenue and I have wanted a really good digital camera for a while now, but, well... Well, the guilty, co-dependant in me feels like I shouldn't spend money on myself. Rather, I should be spending that money on some charity or other. Giving it to the church or feeding starving children in Africa or something. Naturally, I called a friend to churn this over in my head and his response did help put things in perspective for me.
"Look, you just survived cancer this year..." And, that was as far as he got before I had already gotten the point. Yes, it has been a rougher than usual year and I have really wanted a good camera with which I can make art for some time. But, I do want to avoid that whole feeling of entitlement. I don't ever want to get back into a mindset of "I deserve this because things have been rough lately." In the past, that kind of attitude has not served me well. Not at all.

So, I'll try to avoid that feeling and still make use of and enjoy the camera.
I do deserve good things and I do deserve to have fun, cancer not with standing. I do work hard for most everything I have and I am grateful for the opportunities that God gives me, both to get good things and to give good things. And, I do appreciate every, single person who has ever clicked on an ad on my website that earned me the money to buy this. It has made me think more and pay more attention to advertising on other people's websites, if nothing else.
And, of course, you all will get to see more photos as time goes by and I get better with my new toy. I know at least one unusual feature of Houston that I want to capture, though it may take some time. Oh, in case you hadn't figured it out, all the pictures in this post were taken with the new camera.
Tomorrow, I'll lay out the camera itself and take pictures of it, per a challenge from Peter, the Brit. Until then, though, enjoy these!

Now, this is what I call recycling!

Okay, if you're a Slashdot or Gizmodo reader, you've already seen this story about the Nigerian man who builds working helicopters from scrap. But, if haven't seen this yet, go read the story.

I've been given a six month sentence, but it feels like a reprieve.

Though I'm a young man of almost thirty-nine, I have a cardiologist, as of today.  But, he's given me good news.  After wrestling with the idea that I was going to be on blood thinners for the rest of my life, I probably won't be after all.

I went to see him today, to find out about long-term monitoring of coumadin, after being referred by my general practitioner.  I had an EKG and an ultrasound done when I got there and explained to several people that I'd recently survived cancer.  After a final explanation of why I'd come to see him, the doctor told me that I had a slight weakness in one valve that was allowing a minute amount of blood back into the heart.  Thankfully, it was so minor that it didn't concern the doctor at all, outside of future monitoring.  But, after some more questions about what kind of chemotherapy I had, the doctor was actually quite pleased that I didn't have more weakening of my heart!  Apparently, andriamycin, which was one of the "flavors" I had, can weaken the heart quite a bit and he didn't see any of that in the ultrasound.

However, the best news was that, unless I presented with more problems or a hyper-coagulant disease of some kind, there probably wasn't a reason to keep me on coumadin for more than six months.  Yea!  So, for the first time in I can't remember, I have good news about my long term health and care.  Double yea!

I'm sure that's all it is.

I've been coughing again, like I was last year about this time.  I'm sure I've just caught a cold and the cough will go away soon.  I'm sure it's not like last year.  I'm sure I won't start coughing blood.  Everyone at work has been sick, it seems, so I'm sure that I've just caught one of their colds.  I end up at everyone's desk, after all.  If anyone is going to catch something, it would be me.  Sure, I got a flu shot this year, but there's that super cold going around.  I'm sure that's all it is.

But, I'm afraid.
I started to cough and spit in the sink to see if there was pink in it.  I started to wonder how I'd make it through another year of chemotherapy.  Knowing what it's like now, I started to be afraid of the cough, of what it might mean.
I have an appointment with a cardiologist Thursday to monitor my blood thinner and my high-blood-pressure medication.  I go in for a scan on December 10th, which is a Monday.  But, if I'm not significantly improved by the end of the coming week, I'll make an appointment to see another doctor about my cold, or whatever it is.

I don't think it's my cancer come back, but I'm afraid anyway.

Well, anything to get geeks moving, I guess.

So, is there a Tolkien/Lord of the Rings geek in your life that needs to get out and exercise? No, that's not a trick question! Then get them to Walk to Rivendell!

As both a literature geek and someone who needs to get exercising, I have to admit, this challenge actually appealed to me a bit. Originally, it was meant for a semi-promotional tie-in to the opening of Return of the King, back in 2003, but there's no reason not to do it now. Or, as the Boing Boing article suggests, do it in reverse and walk home with the hobbits. Seriously, it's kind of fun, a motivator to get started doing something healthy, and puts those "ancient" modes of transportation into perspective.
Also, if you're an iPod owner, you can get the Lord of the Rings Trilogy Soundtrack CDs, then rip them for your walking workouts, to help get you into the spirit of things.

When marrying, ask yourself this question: Do you believe that you will be able to converse well with this person into your old age? Everything else in marriage is transitory.
Friedrich Nietzsche

I know someone who thinks she's getting married. It may sound pessimistic, but I think differently.

So, there's this former receptionist from my office, C. She and this other guy from work have been alternately going out or breaking up or fighting like Arabs and Israelis for most of a year now. Somehow, because I showed more than a little interest in her when she first started, I got sucked into this. Now, mainly, I try to maintain my status as a somewhat interested observer, but I don't always manage it. She tells me one thing and then I hear something different at work. Now, it seems, after calling it quits a couple of weeks ago, this guy has asked her to marry him. At least, that's what C. has told me. I think she earnestly believes that's what's going to happen, but I don't. Or, at least, I hope not for both their sakes.

Oh, sure, there's lots of passion in this relationship and I can tell you from first-hand experience, that passion can be powerful stuff. But, it also lies. It shouts in your ear, telling you that this is the ONE, regardless of all their faults. It bellows about the intensity of two hearts beating as one in a raging forest fire of shared desire. But, to do that, it yells and screams over those little voices that tell you something's wrong. That she smokes too much or that he pays too much attention to other women. Passion drowns out all those very logical and reasonable voices that tell you you're making a mistake. And, I'm afraid that C. doesn't hear those tiny voices over the roar of her amniotic ocean.

On the other hand, take my friends J and L.
Now, these two have something that runs deeper than simple passion. I'll grant you, I haven't been privy to all their trials and tribulations of blending two lives together, but I know enough. And, of course, there was the whole "cold-feet" incident around Christmas. It was a close thing, their marriage. But it was different, in part because of the doubts.

You see, doubt really is healthy. When I got married, I was very, very sure that it was the right thing and that everything could be overcome and would work out for the best. And, all the other platitudes one hears about that passionate, erotic love. But, there is no amount of passion that can overcome a huge gap in values or in the value found in another person. You see, The Queen of the Damned and I had different ideas about what to value and how to show it. In the end, we both felt the other was taking us for granted and getting more than they gave. I'm honestly not sure who was right there, if anyone was, but the perception is what matters.
And, that's why I think J and L will make it, ultimately, but C and her dream won't. J and L see each other for who they are and value that. Not in spite of their short-comings or flaws, but because of them. Because they can see that most glorious thing in each other, a friend. Someone they look forward to spending time with, but are not consumed by. Now, I would imagine that, being newlyweds, they have to work a bit at the not being consumed. It's tricky to find that balance between being a couple and being individuals and I admire the work that they put into doing that.

I'm thankful that I know them and can see the relationship they're still developing. I'm honored that they invite me into a part of that world they've created together. They're far from perfect, but, without realizing it, I think they've become the model after which I hope to build my own future relationship, or relationships. (Hey, I'm a realist! For me, there'll probably be more than one before I find a good fit. I'm an acquired taste!) They give me hope that things can work out differently in my future than they did in my past.

That quote at the beginning, by the way, was something I was going to say at J and L's wedding, in the toast that I didn't get to make because I was in the hospital.

And other things to say that will distract your opponent.

So, every once in awhile, I get involved in a deep, heated, technical discussion with another high-grade geek. Often, right in the middle of the argument, one of us will realize that we're dead wrong and have no way to get out of the situation unscathed. Well, now, thanks to Pigdog Journal, I present you with Things To Say When You're Loosing A Technical Argument.
Most of them are more effective than, "Look! It's Wayne Newton!", but that's still my favorite.

Oh, I'll never learn.

So, I read a lot of blogs. Not a big surprise, really, all things considered. One of the blogs I track is the Houston Chronicle's TechBlog. Recently, they ran a post titled "Spy on your spouse's online habits, go to jail". Now, as a currently unmarried person, you may think I don't have a dog in that fight, but, well, I kind of do. Allow me to explain.

See, about three years ago, my now ex-wife was cheating on me with her latest husband. (in fact, tomorrow, it will be three years to the day that I told her I "knew" what was going on and she bolted rather than face up to any problems we were having.) I was tempted to install spyware, or do other kinds of traces, on her communications. And, I think I would have been within my legal rights, since the computer was in my house and, technically, shared property. Now, I'm not a lawyer, obviously, but as part of my job, I do have to be fairly up to date on legal issues regarding computer security.
It's unclear from the article whether or not the man in Austin who got four years for installing spyware on his wife's computer had physical possession of the PC in question, but I'd imagine not. Now, I got confirmation of my suspicions by reading a raw mail file on a server I rented space on. The account was one I paid for, but my ex-wife foolishly used to tell nasty lies about me. (And, yes, also some uncomfortable truths, but they were mostly obscured by the rather outrageous lies.) At the time, my lawyer's office agreed with me that it seemed like I was legally in the clear when I read the e-mail file. Though we didn't actually have to test the law, in general, I would have been considered the rightful owner of the file in question, ergo, I had the right to read it.  And, ownership, to me, is the issue.  If I own the computer in question, don't I have the right to install software on it that captures information?  In that situation, in a private residence, who has the right to expect privacy when using that machine?
In any case, I made comment and then, later, read some other comments on the post.
One person made some rather sweeping generalizations with which, naturally, I disagreed. A small, tepid debate ensued. The other commenter made comments about legality in an absolute sense, as in "...it is illegal to crack a password of another adult, for any reason, no matter where the software comes from - the guy is going to do 4 years in jail?" And, therein lies the rub. It's NOT illegal to crack a password of another adult "for any reason". There are, in fact, many legal reasons I've cracked passwords at work. For one, someone illegally locked files with a password to hold a company hostage. The company in question clearly had ownership of the password-locked files, but there was no way to recover the file without cracking the password. There are other examples, but any time someone starts talking in absolutes about the law, I know they've had no real experience with actual legal matters. A good lawyer can argue for a lot of exceptions to any law and, if they're good enough, win. The fact that this guy is going to jail means that his lawyer couldn't do that, if he even had anything more than a public defender. That's all.
And, to me, the real question here is one of ownership. If I own the computer, I can install software on it to make sure it is being used the way I see fit. On the other hand, there is the question of a user's expectation to privacy. If the user on the computer I own expects a certain level of privacy, for whatever reason, and hasn't been informed otherwise... Well, let's just say the law gets a little hazy at this point. Really, in most things legal, there just aren't any absolutes. Ask a lawyer, they'll pretty well tell you the same thing.
The other points that the commenter made about raising children and marital affairs leads me to believe that he is simply inexperienced or naive. When he wrote, "I guess how you raise your kids is your choice, unfortunately. None of mine have ever been in any trouble whatsoever so I will keep my ways going...", it never occurred to him that his kids might be in trouble, but he hasn't found out yet. Same thing about the state of his marriage.
Again, I'm not saying I've got the only answer, just that there isn't any absolute answer to this whole issue. What's more, he falls into the fallacy of ascribing meaning and intent to my disagreement that was not there. When he said that the better way to check up on your possibly cheating spouse was to have them followed by an "ex-cop", I disagreed. Strongly. Being an ex-cop does not guarantee any level of success in trailing and catching a cheating spouse. And, while "pictures speak louder than words", often, words from incriminating e-mail speak loudly enough.

Naturally, I don't advocate breaking the law, but there's a lot of question about where that threshold is in the digital world. And, simply trusting everyone you have a relationship with is, well, naive at best.

But, all that aside, I wrote this here because I had something left to say, but didn't see the point of continuing the "discussion" over there.